Lorenzo, I really admire you for being faithful to your partner! That is a rarity these days and I hope you stay the same.
Sometimes people cheat because they need to take time or space from their partner, dissatisfied with theri relationship which means they are probably ready to move on/out - which brings us to our question few days ago that I believe it is important that divorce should be mandated in the Philippines.
You and I have experienced unfaithful partners and it has traumatized us beyond belief but we do not give up, right!
Good luck to you!
Ciao
Good morning Carmen, thanks for the beautiful / sweet reply.
I am and will always be a hopeless romantic, my dear. The reason why I became so very 'strict' 2-3 years ago is because of the continued cycle of me being too forgiving (i am, by nature, very forgiving, and still am!) and this results in me giving my xlovers a second change, 3rd chance etc etc (you see where i am going with this), and it became so painful for me that i actually reached a personal epiphany. Why was I allowing myself to be hurt? If this woman was cheating on me and continually hurting me despite the fact that she knew how much i was affected, tears filled my face--but it was with a heavy heart that I had to cut her off. Completely cut her off. Even now, she tries to contact me, but I delete all her emails, rip her mails, and burned all her letters that she and I had regular correspondence with. I burned them all.
In the pursuit of erasing and cleansing these feelings, I realized that I became a person who I really was not.
I had to deal with this last year and the beginning of this year as I was in mass. My priest told me, after telling him my situation and the internal struggle I was having, he simply said, "My son, you must let go of this anger, let go of this hurt, for if you retain it, it will burn a whole within you that will be irreparable if you let it consume you. Let it go, my son. In its place, take Christ's forgiving nature. Let it go, my son."
And this year, Carmen, I let it go.
Sweety, I let it go. Oh and the feeling was so absolutely beautiful.
And I know that God does work in wonders, for the time i let it go, I met my love.
Coincidentally.
It realy is good to forgive. Forgive so that we, too, may be forgiven by God from all of our own sins.
He knows the depth of my soul, and the depth of my longing.
And has provided provision after provision.
Thanks for hearing me out, buddy!
Lorenzo,
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