how oddly familiar. our situation. i being the giving end, and you the receiving end. yes, it is with contrite heart that i speak about this (a form of therapy almost, in an oddly yet positive way) to anonymous folk. the reasons for my breaking up with her was to make sure i attain excellence in studies. sa under grad nako, i graduated summa cum laude from college and so i wanted to maintain that same excellence in medicine. i thought that by removing all forms of distraction, i could maintain. my relationship , at the time, did take up so much of my time and emotional energy.
tho to my finding , later on that is, that medicine would be 10x as hard as undergraduate.
during my 1st and 2nd years, especially my 2nd year, i realized that i desperately needed the mental and emotional support that my xgf gave me during college. luckily for me, i did meet a med student who clicked with me. btw, she happens to be filipina and emotionally supportive. we support each other and are there for one another, especially during this crucial time of our lives, the clinical internship years.
closure. you know, you have a point. perhaps i never did have closure with my xgf. that is probably why i think of her from time to time. whatever she is doing now, wherever she is, i hope and pray that she is happy. the last i heard (from a mutual friend) is that she is still working on her Ph.D in immunology in Galveston, Texas.
its wierd. i can't bring myself to apologize to her or to hear her voice. it would make me weak. and i don't want to cry about her anymore. it is a loss that i will have to live with for the rest of my life.
i guess, one of the sweet, spices, of life.
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