my father twice cheated to my mother but my mother still accepted him. i think what's best is you accept your fault and show remorse on what you did. hopefully women should understand that men are born polygamous.
When we were growing up (and even up to now), I told colleagues that I was so sure my Dad never had another woman in his life. And the usual question thrown to me was, how sure are you? Well, ingon nila, if maldito ang amahan - meaning tsikboy, somehow masumbalikdaw sa mga anak na babae. At that time, most of us 9 girls were in our 30s and none of us ever got pregnant or married except for my police sister. But tinud jud, Dad never had any other woman kay busy man sya mahjongan ug sa Sunday school aka buwangan.
My grandfather had another woman though. My grandma told us grandkids that Tatay Macar had other woman (or women, maybe) while working as a soldier. One day, my grandmother received a letter from "the other" woman professing her love to my grandpa. My grandma was one strong and feisty woman but she took the news so calmly and with grace. She wrote back to the other woman and one thing she said that I couldn't forget what she said in her broken english, something like - thank you for loving my husband and thank you for taking care of him while I wasn't around to take care of him.
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