On a personal note;
There is one woman in my life that I choose not to talk to even if she gives me the time of day.
She was my first love, a high school love, and in the early days of my 1st year in undergraduate college.
She was the one whom I gave everything to, my heart, my soul, my body, my mind. Everything.
Emotionally and physically I gave her my all. Loyalty, and jealously gave everything to her.
And to find out that she was the one, the very person whom I least expected, was not being faithful to me.
Now, I, being a jealous lover, could not live with the fact that my own love would talk to another man.
I do not share. Nor do I expect or will allow something to go on underneath my perception and not do anything about it. My judgment was swift and clean.
To the imbecile who had the audacity in talking and making advances with my love, I dealt with him accordingly and respectfully. Man to man. In gentleman-like manner.
To my former love, I was hurt the most. Our last meeting was in the park by Scotland Run Natural Preserve, by the lake. We sat across each other.
My eyes were filled with tears, reddened with tears, asking her repetitively, "Why did you do this? How can you do this to me?" And for an hour or so I sat there looking at her, gazing into her eyes, searching for an answer.
She did not answer me, her eyes pointed down to the ground. In shame.
After some time (hours), as the sun began to set, I tought of the many times we sat to see the sun sets, the hands we used to hold, the kisses i gave her, the sensuality we shared, the love i gave her, and the love she gave to me. And the love that she threw away.
I took a deep breath, rose from the seat. Bent over to give her a kiss on the cheeks, while my eyes were still filled with tears and whispered to her, "I cannot continue this with you. I cannot forgive you. I wish the best for you, may you find your love of your life, surely, you are not the one for me."
I took off my promise ring. Placed it in her hand. And I walked away.
4 years ago.
chin-up dong Bran naa na btw. c Ms.S aherm§
