Posted on FB by Renelyn Pakay Taquilid
I've been thinking for a couple of days if I have to post this in social media, since this is my private life. It's a long story and if you are impatient, then skip reading.
At the age of 4, my mama passed away. I couldn't even remember a single memory of her. Sad right? But then, the world isn't that unfair because I still have my Papa and of course my siblings biskan mura mig iro ug iring. I am the youngest, the so called menopausal baby and the reason why all the failures that my siblings have caused dli na gusto ni Papa mahitabo skoa or mahimo nako. Kani tungod kay akong mga magulang wla nakahuman skwela.
When I was 7 years old, I started dreaming. At that young age, I realized na dli ko ganahan ani na klase sa kinabuhi. Mananggi [harvest] mais sa uban tawo, naa nay sweldo depende pila ka alat [bukag] imu mapuno ug usahay mais ghapon kapalit ana para konsumo. Maglukdo sako nga naay sulod bukong, usahay pa kopras na mahibilin sa nagalugit [gorami/pulpog]. Magbuhat pawod dos isa ka buok nya balanseha isa ka dupa og tunga ang kataas.
I made all that to buy my personal needs. Kay xempre dli na kaya ni Papa tanan.
Mag-uuma/mangoprasay akong papa ug bisan asa lang xa manghornal (manarbaho) basta ting kopras. And I'm proud of him kay bisag pobre kaymi, wla xa nakahuna² byaan mi or mo give up. I know how to make basket (bukag), bilao, banig, etc. because I inherited my mama's skills. If I made bilao it's my Papa who made its handle. Ako lng sa base, it's because hait kaayo ang materials. My Papa is one of a kind, very responsible and if I have the chance to choose, I'll still choose him as my father. But one thing he lack of is that, he's not showy of his feelings
June 3, 2005, my Papa wasn't around that's why my aunt decided to enroll me and my cousin. "Tara baligya tag marang para naa moy pampalit lapis ug papel." Mao ni linyahan skong ante (tiya Lida) I am so excited without minding kung unsa pa na ka bug at ang lokduhon nko na marang and imagine it is 1-2 hours baklayon gkan bukid palugsong sa bario and vise versa. Dli pana sali if mag ulan. Tinuod, akong pangandoy nagsugod sa marang
First day of school, I was late haha kay nihapit pag pamayabas
ug na slide pa sa lapok the reason why gpa uga pa ang damit nga glabhan rapud sa dagat
imagine sa damit nga labhan sa dagat perti ka katol and igang
. Nisulod ko bisag late, naga klase na among ma'am sa hapon. Naa rako sa pinakalikod. But thank God kay paspas rako maka cope up, dli sa panghinambog pero mao nay true hahaha kaya lang always kong absent. Why? It's because I'm shy with my classmates having hotdog and rice as their lunch. Tulak² ug bag tapos complete uniform. Naay sapatos, bag o mga sanina, humot and all. Tas ako juskoooo ang baon bugas sa mais na perti kagahi paresan pag bulad na tamban, nya gbalot sa dahon sa saging. Nya kung imu abrehan manimaho na tamban tanan
Ingon ani akong baon matag adlaw, bugas sa mais usahay sinugba nga kamote which is prefer pa nko ang sinugba nga kamote. Kung ma swertehan naay bugas, edi happy kaayo. Akong bag cellophane HAHA tas akong sanina balik²
Worst, akong lapis taas pa skong tudlo, nya dli ko palitan kay part of the punishment nganu mamugos skwela
. Naka try ko mamaligya kahoy, kalabasa, ug uban pang klase sa gulay para makapalit school supplies. And I am the one waking up everyday during school days at 2:30 am. Cooking for breakfast and for my baon. Nay times na wla mi posporo kaya gnabuhat nko bago matulog, sugnuran ang kalayo ug kahoy para dugay mapalong. Gaadtu kog school everyday quarter to 5 kay layo man. Sahay may ligo, sahay wla kay layo kaayo ang sapa
sahay naa koy sabay mag uli, apan permi ako ra isa. There were times na kung mag dag om paunhon kog uli skong teacher kay lge layo pa kaayo amoa.
Ug pila may storya nahuman kog grade 1 as most behave HAHAHA mao rana akong ribbon. Akong maestra rapud nagtaud. Next destination, Grade 2 nko yeyyy
I started being focus sa klase tsarrr, but true. Studious kayko. During closing, I end up second honor. Nakalimot nko knsa nagtaud skong ribbon pero wla ko kalimot na lima to kabuok. I'm so happy and proud of myself, maybe my Papa will change his mind and see that I'm doing good in school. But sad to say walay reaction
I just told myself that, cguru dli lang gyud showy si Papa kung paunsa xa ka proud skoa.
Grade 3-5 I was awarded as first honor
and same as usual bisag knsa ray available na kaila mosaka stage magtaud skong ribbon/medal. Ok rako hindi naman masakit
kana tungod kay nasanay nako. Ug gahatag pud mn manok si Papa skong mga advisers everytime na kabalo xa naa koy honor
but, never I ever had a picture in those memorable moments skong life. Basta ang importante makab ot nko akong pangandoy. When I was in grade 3 pa, I decided to stop, kay wla koy sapatos. Akong tsinelas gbutangan pag lansang sa ilalom kay bugto man HAHA..tapos required na complete uniform. So, gharvest ni papa iyang mais bisag dli pa tama sa panahon just to buy shoes (tho dili nya suportado akong pag iskol)
Grade 6, I started exploring my capacity as student leader, I ran for the position as Vice President, but I end up being the president for the Supreme Pupil's Government (for some reasons). Those times pud nagsugod ko working student to test my determination ug kung kaya ba gyud nako panindigan akong pangandoy. Unfortunately, pila rako ka bulan kay weak kaayo kog immune system, gamay na ulan kalinturahon. Mamayat dayun (wla pud ko kasulay nanambok)
Yayyy, wla ko kabalo if nagampanan ba nko akong role pero nakakat on gyud kog maayo. It was really a memorable experience
together with my co-student leaders. Miss ya'll
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Graduation day nko sa elementary, dli na katingalahan wla na pud si papa it's because nasamad iyang tiil dako kaayo sa may lapa². Ending, it was our pastor who escorted me, it is really frustrating seeing your papa at the crowd instead of climbing up on stage with you. Pero lge kay sanay nko it's ok
hindi naman masakit medyo lang
at least nag ihaw cla baboy
so mao to grabe ako hilak during my valedictory address HAHAHA
The whole journey nko sa elementary wla ko kasulay nga gtambungan skong papa in any events. I understand because he has his own reasons and I respect it, kaya lang masuya ko sa mga classmates nko nga complete family na present every time
not my intention but I do envy you guys
. Sometimes, makaingon ko how I wish naa pud ko'y bisag isa lang sa pamilya na moadtu, cguru I'm the happiest
Next stop high school, new door of opportunities has been unlocked, and I'm ready to take it all for a cause
I studied and worked as well, it's because I'm not sure what might happen in the long run. But it's always my health that hinders me. Uli na pud ko smoa, padayun gyapon skwela tho ako ra isa gapuyo sa balay [naa na diay mi balay sa bario]
Here comes the bigger problem that our family faced. This problem affected me a lot, to the point that Papa decided to cut me off from school [undang na is me]. Nihilak kog taman² pati pagpananghid nko skong teacher nihilak ko. It's because I don't want to see my classmates moving forward to the next year level habang ako mabilin
I felt like, this is so unfair. Ako nga gatarung, nganu ako man ang maapektuhan.? Nihawa ko smoa since 2011. Kay xempre mag unsa mn ko? Magminyo? Noooo way!!!!
Nag work ko as kasambahay for 6 months. Akong sweldo akong g tigom para makabalik ko skwela. Ug pila may palad sa ok ok? Naka skwela kog balik. Grade 7!! Gpa iskwela ko skong amo pero nihawa pud ko after few months for some reasons (I'm forever thankful sa ilaha kay nakabalik ko skwela). Good thing naa koy iyaan ug uyuan sila akong ikaduhang mama ug papa
sila gagasto skoa pati pud akong mga pinsan nga gahatag skong baon adlaw2 pati na baydanan sa skul for almost five months. Salamat kaayo ina, ama!
November 3, 2012. I didn't expect that a bigger opportunity will knock at my door. Akong ArPan teacher sa hayskul, nangita buddy² kay wla xa kauban for the mean time habang wla pa iya working student. I grabbed the opportunity bahalag temporary lng. Mao ni nga time nakapuyo ko kay ate/ma'am Luz Parsaso. Makaingon gyud ko nga grabe gyud kaayo sa Ginoo. From temporary to permanent working student lang naman ako
maong grabe gyud akong ka mapasalamaton sa inyuha te luz, te jack, te aida ug uban pa
salamat kaayo sa financial ug moral support
During my junior/senior high school years, ga struggle ko kay ga adjust pa pud ko sa environment, wla koy kaila bisag isa gyud. Nag student leader gyapon ko and I make friends both from org and classmates [arang² na gamay]. Sa makausa pa, I graduated both junior and senior high school nga wla si Papa
I cried in my speeches not because I am happy, but because I felt like I failed again and again. Ga ask akong teacher, nganu gusto nmu mag excel sa klase? Isa ra akong tubag, kana tungod kay gusto nko mosaka akong papa sa stage
but I failed to do so
Moving on, college life is never the same as those in junior and senior high school, because the true battle starts here. And I want to take this opportunity to thank the late sir Richard Pernia, for helping me all throughout my SASE journey. Na tungod sa kadako sa score ni Berry Lauron, dli na unta makapasa akong 64 na iskor
yes 64 rako sa SASE and it's the final cut-off score for the 2018 SASE EXAM. Thank you so much sir, grabe gyud imu paningkamot para mababaan ang cut-off score, para bisag naa lay isa makasulod sa MSU from EGMNHS, ok naka! You prepared all my papers for the enrollment. You said po, tarung skwela balik² lng dre sa polsci if naa kay mga kakulian. And yes as I promised, I made it sir
and sorry po kay wla ko gaadtuan sa polsci department, and it's too late
My 4 years in college is a long and a tough journey pero murag kagahapon lang. Murag kagahapon lang gabalaka pako asa ko na grupo sa Performance task sa PE, knsa ko manghiram laptop para maka type, knsa akong pamalihugan mag submit skong files, knsa akong sabay magkaon pastil, mamaktas padung centro (uhaw), kung makapasa bako sa requirements on time, asa ko magkuha kwarta (kay sa tinuod lang ubay² gid baydan nga outside sa payments na may receipts), ug knsa akong kauban sa makapatay na thesis
ug labaw sa tanan makagraduate ba ko on time?
Gladly, I survived all that, because I have my friends and classmates na always ga extend og help. I also have rare individuals (endangered species
) na one chat away, mga tao nga gapaminaw skong sentiments tho gna HAHA rako nnu but it means a lot to me. You're forever my confidante
thank you so much to my college professors/mentors
ug sa akong mga resource/cooperating teachers during field study and teaching internship, thank you so much dli ko ka survive sa final requirements if not because of you po
and most of all skong forever squad nga magyawyaw sa bago motabang and blockmates [na tud nalang graduation wla class pic] you made my college life memorable and bearable...charezzzz
Someone ask me, wla lge ka gauli sa inyo? Wla ka gna mingaw sa imu Papa? Kung kamingaw lng hisgutan sobra pa dha akong gnabatyag. Pero mag unsa mn ko ddtu? If ba mag uli ko makatabang nako? What about tomorrow? I sacrificed everything for my dreams ug dli ko basta² moundang sa tunga². Tinuod, layo pa kaayo ko, pero layo² na pud ko kung asa ko gkan.
Sa mga tao dha nga maayo kaayo magbuhat² storya, you made me stronger by pushing me to my limitations. Salamat kay tungod ninyo naningkamot ko
To all my teachers in elementary and high school at Kalbay, EGMNHS teachers specially ma'am Ritzel Ende and Sir Andy Boy Opong, college professors, thank you so much for sharing your knowledge and wisdom. You taught us not just theories from books but facts based on real-life situations. I'm forever grateful and indebted
Skong Papa, Pang! Salamat kaayo kay gtudluan ko nimu paano mabuhi nga ako lang. Paano magdesisyon nga ako ra. Paano mahimong independent since then. Salamat kaayo, kay tungod nimu nahimo kong determinado. Nakat-on ko sa tanang buluhaton nga base lang sa makita nko sa uban and it's worth it kay dako kaayo xag tabang. Mahal kaayo tamo ug mingaw nko sa inyo tho dli ninyo ni mabasa
Ug labaw sa tanan, salamat kaayo Looooorddddd
sa guidance, protection ug sa love. Grabe gyud imung kamaayo skoa bisan pa man usahay gna kwestyon nko imung proseso sa paghatag skoang gpangayo pero at the end naa diay ka better plans para skoa.
Tips:
*For those young individuals who were struggling in their own battles, let me tell you that in every situation there's always a time to pull back and a time to push forward. Learn to rest but never quit. Because quitting means you're doubting your own capabilities, you're beyond what you think you can do. It's just that we tend to rely on kapoy nko! Never try to compete with others, d porket nabilin kas byahe ulahi naka. D' porket hina kas acads b*b* naka. We have our own timeline and instead rushing to the finish line, why not enjoy the process. The slower you reach your goal the more experiences you went through. Kung nay problema naa gyud nay solusyon.
*If you fail, learn to laugh at your own mistakes and failures. Do not overreact or feel pressured, tanan man ta nagkamali. Kaya lang we have different way of reflecting to it. Remember! It's the battle of the fittest. If wla kay motivation? Peras ta
HAHA. Cguru it's my greatest strength pud because I am immune to problems ug mga pagsulay. Mokatawa ra gyud ko bisag gahilak HAHAHAHA.
*Friendly advice, surround yourself with friends if wla kay lain source of happiness and strength. Make your classmates as your family kay bisan pag unsa na sila ka seryuso or kabuang they will help you whenever you're down. Lain² na sila ways mag comfort, others may laugh at you while others seriously hugs you. What matters most is that you'll never feel that you're alone.
*If you're that person who can't work under pressure, cannot multitask, and dli baga nawong, sa college ayaw sa pag uyab². I don't want to compare my story to yours, gusto ra nko iingon na i secure sa imu studies. Pero if kaya nmu ipagsabay tanan..goooooesss kung asa ka malipay. Just be reminded of your limitations. If higpit kag parents or ate and kuya, understand them because they have reasons why doing so. Kung kita as student nagkalisod, mas nagkalisod cla pangita kwarta. Basta ako, ang tanan butang naay kanya² na gna tawag perfect timing. Learn to wait, if it's meant for you, it will be yours[In God's perfect timing].
*Kung wla ka g gastuhan, paningkamot imuha. Kay dli tanan higayon iasa natu sa atung ginikanan atung panginahanglan. Kay sumala pa btaw sa ginaingon "Kapag gusto maraming paraan, kung ayaw maraming dahilan."
*Ayaw kabalaka kung wla kay wow nga sanina (pangukay uy!makaless and maka save paka), wakay iPhone? (naa may baratuhon dli lang pud Qnet), wakay laptop? (pakisuyo sa may mga gamit, pramis apilan pa na nla printer
), wakay daghan kwarta? (pangutang sa imu RK na friend mauwaw pana sila singil
) kung gna libak ka? Aw palibaka lng, dli mana nmu ikamatay
ug labaw sa tanan wakay jowa? (paghimo daghan amigo/a)
portante lng gyud sa tanan makakaya ka wla tulog² 24hrs
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It's not yet the end of my story so I leave it here without ending, because the next chapter is yet to come. CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL GRADUATES OF BATCH HIRAYA 2022
TO MY ELGEND FAMILY
TO MY FRIENDS, SA TANAN NAKONG NAHIMONG HIGALA, SA MGA PA AS IF LNG NA ILA KONG HIGALA OK RAPUD
CONGRATULATIONS AND THANK YOU SA MEMORIES
FINALLY! WE MADE IT!!! AHOOOOO
Special mention:
Ashley G. dela Peña
Real Je
Dennielle Caceres
Glaiza Ghay Gawa
Cylene Rose C. Patigayon
April Jordan Alojado
Jason Timtim Guimbaan Jr.
Geo Geo Moral
Ardian B. Ogayon
Jesthony Lupague
Mark Agustian Ngo Dafal
(Wla lng mention lng ta mo HAHAHAHA... DAMSALAMATS)
P.S. don't mind the grammar kapoy nko tuo
RENELYN PAKAY TAQUILID
-pure blooded Manobo
-proud working student since elementary
Bachelor of Elementary Education-major in General Education
Mindanao State University-Gensan
Batch Hiraya 2022
Beed Dept. Service Awardee (
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"Nagsugod sa marang, nagtapos sa maroon".
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